8.01.2015

this month - august

MAKING - Facetime calls with my 2 yr old niece like it's my job.
CRAVING - peaches. all the time.
PLAYING - a game called rearranging-the-whole-apartment-get-excited-jared
LISTENING TO - the Apple music playlists with current music, in an attempt to stay relevant. *sigh*
READING - The Nightingale
WATCHING - Tig
WEARING - as much of Madewell's new Fall collection as possible, & yes, that includes overalls.
LEARNING - to use this daily planner that I fully expect to change my life
GOING TO - the beach with our Coulomb besties later in the month!
WORKING ON - portion control *insert sideeye emoji*
OBSESSED WITH - this eyebrow mascara
PLANNING - in advance for allll the work travel weekends this fall. Like, 5 in a row.
EXCITED FOR - even the slightest of breeze's now that we've survived July's humidity.
HOPING - my new philosophy on my relationship with food sticks.
STARTING - to get the hang of Snapchat... I think. (follow me! kelseybethune)
FINISHING - Criminal Minds. Because I'm the picture in the dictionary when you look up "binge-watching."

What are you up to this month?

7.24.2015

Hi blog.

It's almost comical that right about the time that Refinery29 & Lauren Conrad share my DIY hair post & the blog traffic came a-pourin' in, I disappeared off the blog grid.

My grandfather passed away two Fridays ago. A stroke lead to a fall on 4th of July weekend, & we spent nearly all of that weekend at his side, holding his hand & playing his favorite Andrew Lloyd Webber tunes on whoever's iPhone had the most battery left. Jared & I were able to drop everything to spend time with him & my family, having taken time off to spend in Richmond for Amelia's birthday on a weekend that would have otherwise left us both working all day long. We returned to DC on Monday & got the call that Grandpa had gone Home the following weekend. I was able to set off nearly immediately for Virginia to be with my family & prepare to make the road trip back to Missouri for his funeral with the rest of my mom's family.

Over a full three weeks of heartache & goodbyes & travel, it never felt right to stop & write even a This Month post. Mourning always manifests itself in such odd ways, made odder by the fact that I simply haven't experienced the loss of a family member prior to Grandpa McLean. How amazing is that? To have experienced 26 beautiful years with all four of my grandparents - What a blessing! Saying goodbye to my grandpa has taken its form in doing the things he loved... Watching movies with the ones you love most, learning everything there is to know in your own city, appreciating a song you've heard a million times. His life was one of knowledge & acknowledging the glory in how the tiniest of creations works, & I love that legacy.

Needless to say, it's been a heavy month.

I do have photos to share, because you can't spend 16 hours in the car with a 2-year-old niece or 48 hours with your cousins & beautiful grandma without bottling up some sweet moments in photo form. But not today. Today I just wanted to say hi, & that I'm not giving up on this little blog, & that time away from the computer screen is sometimes exactly what your heart needs.

6.18.2015

eat - grilled pizzas

18 days ago (AKA the last time I showed my face around these parts), I noted that I was craving my dad's grilled pizza. It's true. I'm pretty much in a constant state of craving pizza, but dad's pizza is top notch. Dad's grilled pizza? It is actually the creme de la creme.

(Side note: My mom's herb garden is amazing & how did I miss that gene AND the one that helps me speak French fluently?)

Grilled Pizza Recipe + Sitting In Our Tree

You may remember this post, in which we discussed that while everyone else spent their Saturday mornings eating pancakes, we were given the gift of dad's crepes to wake up to every weekend. Well, Saturday morning crepes were merely the dessert to Friday night pizza, a tradition that might seem common, but no one takes it as seriously as Essmanns. Our pizza nights are renowned amongst friends across at least four states.

Grilled Pizza Recipe+Sitting In Our Tree

We've gone through many phases of Friday night pizza. There was the the fluffy crust preference of the mid-90s, the "new bread maker WHOO!" phase of the late 90's, the let's-just-order-it-because-there-are-20-preteens-over-here phase of the early-2000s, & the current phase of gourmet... & I mean gourmet pizza that has taken over the last 8 years or so.

Grilled Pizza Recipe + Sitting In Our Tree

Somewhere in there was a grilled pizza phase. 
It was glorious, & it sort of ruined me for any other pizza.
Not to say I won't eat other pizza. Please.

Grilled Pizza Recipe + Sitting In Our Tree

AT ANY RATE. I'm here today because I have a present for you. In the spirit of Father's Day, Papa Essmann has been so kind to share his amazing pizza dough recipe, along with some tips he's gathered along the way of his 20+ year long pizza journey. He's so nice. Prepare to be educated.

Grilled Pizza Recipe + Sitting In Our Tree

Pizza Dough Recipe
2 teaspoons bread yeast
1 teaspoon honey
5 Cups bread flour (King Arthur or Gold Medal brand are recommended for great protein level)
1 teaspoon kosher salt
2 eggs
2 Tablespoons Extra Virgin Olive Oil
1 Tablespoon Molasses
1/2 cup filtered water
1-12oz.bottle unfiltered wheat beer

  • Add 2 teaspoons yeast and 1 teaspoon honey to 1/2 cup water at about 100 degrees (this temperature does not feel warm). Stir and allow to sit for a few minutes.
  • Mix 5 cups flour, 1 teaspoon kosher salt, 2 eggs, 2 Tablespoons Extra Virgin Olive Oil, and 1 Tablespoon molasses in a large mixing bowl. Stir to mix well. Add the yeast mixture, 1 bottle of wheat beer, and remaining 2/4 cup water to flour mixture. Stir with a large spoon until clumped together. Spoon out onto a floured surface and knead well, for 3 to five minutes until the dough is smooth. If the dough is sticky, knead in additional flour 1/4 cup at a time. If it is dry, add water 1/4 cup at a time. The finished door should be only slightly tacky, and should rebound slightly when pressed with finger.
  • Put 2 -3 Tablespoons olive oil into the bottom of a clean, large bowl (at least twice the size of the dough ball), and roll the dough in the oil until thoroughly covered. Cover the dough bowl with a damp towel or plastic wrap. Allow to rise in a warm (80 degree) location until double in size.
  • When dough ball is twice its original size (about an hour), drop it out onto a floured surface. Cut into desired number of pieces (This will make four 14 inch pizzas, or eight smaller, thin pizzas. You will determine the size and thickness when it is rolled out). Roll each piece into a ball by stretching pulling the piece from the top with the heel of both hands and pushing to the underside with your fingers. Place each ball on a floured surface and allow to rise for 10 minutes or longer. (You may want to cover with plastic wrap if allowed to sit for longer than 10 minutes).
  • When ready to make pizzas, flour a large surface and roll out with a rolling pin. Be patient, because the dough will continually shrink back up at first, as you try to roll it out. When at the desired size and thickness, Lift and place on lightly oiled pizza pans or cookie sheets. If cooking on a grill, put pizza on a floured and corn meal covered peel. Add toppings as desired - olive oil, mozzarella, tomato sauce (Prego, etc., or homemade), and your choice of meats or vegetables. Bake in 450 degree oven for about 10 minutes. Keep an eye on pizza for doneness of crust and cheese. I usually spin the pizza around a few times while in the oven to ensure even baking, and I like to slide the pizza off the pan, directly onto the oven rack, for the last several minutes of cooking, for a crisper crust.

Some explanations from Papa Essmann:
"The basic pizza recipe is just flour, salt, olive oil, yeast and water. This makes a fine crust, and you can leave out the honey, eggs and molasses, and substitute water for the beer if you like. The honey gets the fermentation process going in the yeast. The eggs make the crust chewier. The molasses is a trick we got from one of our favorite pizza restaurants, and it adds a hearty flavor to the crust that we like. Beer adds flavor of complex yeast formation that you don't get with a fast (1 to 2 hour) rise. A longer rising time will allow the dough to develop the 2nd and 3rd generation yeast fermentation that will give the dough the same deep flavor, but I don't usually make my dough the night before we make pizza (most pizza joints do!). If you want to try the longer rising time, cut the yeast to 1/2 teaspoon. Even with this amount of yeast, you may need to refrigerate the dough, or keep it in a cool location, to get the desired 18 to 24 hours rise time that you need to develop the flavor."

Grilling tips:
"To cook on a grill, I highly recommend using ceramic tiles instead of cooking directly on the grate. Buy some unfinished ceramic tiles at the hardware store, wash them off and place them on your grill to provide an adequately sized cooking surface (or buy a pizza stone, which will get black on the bottom and eventually crack. The 80 cent tiles are a better choice. When they crack, throw them away.) Turn the burners to their highest setting, or stoke a bunch of coals, add some soaked woodchips wrapped in aluminum foil with slits cut in the top, let the grill get screaming hot with the lid down, and slide the pizza directly onto the tiles. Minimize the time the grill is open to retain as much meat as possible. Spin pizza frequently. Pizza is done in 4 to 5 minutes."

6.01.2015

this month - june

^^ finally got a picture where the month isn't centered directly in the middle of my forehead ^^

MAKING - things to fill our blank walls
CRAVING - dad's grilled pizzas
PLAYING - catch up on aaaaall the things after an insane May
LISTENING TO - Stuff They Don't Want You To Know, a very borderline boring podcast about conspiracies
READING - emails. Like... let's not kid ourselves.
WATCHING - Orange is The New Black SEASON THREEEE
WEARING - earrings, but only because Jared got me moon phase earrings for our 9 year dating anniversary.
LEARNING - how to style my hair, made more interesting by the fact that I left my straightener in Richmond this past weekend.
GOING TO - explore more corners of DC with my love in this slightly quieter month
WORKING ON - bettering my day-to-day schedule. It'd be so lovely to have an update on that for you come July.
OBSESSED WITH - Grapefruit juice & the Into The Woods soundtrack
PLANNING - more details for our grand 5 year anniversary adventure
EXCITED FOR - a mini trip home for golden doodles, toddlers & a swimming pool
HOPING - for more rainy days, which are goooood for my soul
STARTING - to see some new growth on the plants I somehow accumulated this spring #oops
FINISHING - my third Whole30, if I can say no to the gelato in our freezer for 20 more days

What are you up to this month?

5.27.2015

nine years

June 2007, when puka shells were barely still a thing

May 27th, 2006.

Nine years ago, & 4 days after I was hoping he would (May 23rd is my favorite day of the year), an 18-year-old Jared took a 17-year-old me on a walk around my parents' neighborhood. We sat in a garden on the golf course. He said, "Kelsey Leigh Essmann, would you be my girlfriend?" & I said, "Of course."

We were babies. The older we get, the more we understand just how young we were. But I can still feel the knowledge I had in my heart & in my gut. That this was it. This was my big love. He was more than I could ever dream up. This was only going to get better.

Nine whole years have flown by. I've been thinking on this for the past couple of weeks & I don't know how to put this thought into words without sounding cheesy or insincere. But here it is: Every day is still a dream. My love for this man has not faltered, faded or dimmed. Love is so big. So overwhelming. It is seriously such a gift.

My heart booms for you, Jared Stedman Bethune. I love you, My Someone.